The world is amazing. In the past, he could only whisper to Jiang Tian what he liked, and dared not let others know. Now he can tell many people calmly, and only Jiang Tian can't hear it.
Even though the communication is so developed, they just cut off contact in the crowd of people.
At first, Sheng Mingyang stared at him like a thief. At that time, Sheng Wang was a little bit out of his mind, thinking that he couldn't catch him anyway, so just forget it - you've put so much effort into it, you just want to watch it. am I alone? Then I format it for you to see.
At that time, I was young, and my mind was sluggish. It is rare for him to be rebellious, because he can't bear to stab others directly, and he always takes a posture of hurting the enemy a thousand and self-destructing eight hundred. In front of Sheng Mingyang, he emptied the account, uninstalled WeChat, and locked the old mobile phone in the drawer along with the "Oh" and "Health Encyclopedia".
Sheng Wang remembered the moment when he closed the drawer, Sheng Mingyang stood at the table without speaking, his expression was a bit lost. And while his eyes were sore, he felt refreshed. It's like biting the most painful ulcer with the sharpest teeth.
After that, other people contact him either by phone or message. All Jiang Tian's movements must be relayed through Sheng Mingyang's mouth. He said to Sheng Mingyang, "Dad, are you relieved?"
Sheng Mingyang did not speak.
The Affiliated High School has an alumni association in Beijing. Every year, freshmen will organize parties and dinners before and after entering the school. Previous seniors and sisters will attend when they are free. Students are welcome to come to Beijing.
The first time Sheng Wang politely declined. When he was young, he was always like a duck to water in this kind of activity, and he could chat with anyone. Even if he couldn't drink enough, he would always drink foolishly while holding a cup. Then he was just boredincessant greetings, courtesies, pretense of intimacy, all strangers in fact. He doesn't have the energy.
The second time he was dragged by Chili Pepper and Gao Tianyang.
Maybe it was born, but when he really got to that environment, he automatically switched to the mode like a duck in water. Until Zhao Xi arrived late, he was as quiet as if the mute button had been pressed.
Zhao Xi saw him at a glance, changed his position with a smile, sat next to him, patted him on the shoulder while no one was paying attention, and said, "Promise, classmate Shengwang, learn to lose contact."
Zhao Xi filled him a glass of beer and touched him with the glass, and the milky white foam splashed out. He took a big sip and heard Zhao Xi say, "It's bitter, right?"
He couldn't swallow.
Zhao Xi said that he has always felt a little bit of subtle guilt, afraid that Sheng Wang would be guided by him and Lin Beiting unintentionally before he took this road. Then he has committed a great sin, causing people to suffer for no reason.
Sheng Wang said no.
Because Zhao Xi and Lin Beiting were there, and if it wasn't for Jiang Tian, he probably wouldn't be able to walk this road. At least he couldn't imagine that scene himself.
He asked Zhao Xi again how he persuaded his family in the first place.
Zhao Xi was stunned for a moment, and said, "Lin Zi doesn't have this pressure, as for me... Lao Zhao used to be an idiot, and my bad temper may have been inherited from him. At that time, I quarreled with Lin Zi, and I also quarreled with Lao Zhao. I went abroad directly. My mother lost her temper with my dad when she couldn’t see anyone, and it softened a bit. Later, Lao Zhao fell ill and suddenly let it go. In the past two years, Lin Zi has been nagging no less than me, probably as a real son Right."
Sheng Wang was stunned for a moment, and suddenly remembered that Boss Joy Zhao had undergone cancer surgery.
"But..." Zhao Xi said, "If I come back again, I'd rather grind him for two more years so that he doesn't get sick. Whose time is not time."
People have different times, joys, sorrows, and sorrows. No matter how similar they are, their days are also their own, and there is nothing to learn from them.
Sheng Wang asked Zhao Xi again, "Did you and Brother Lin help him when he went abroad? He..."
How is he doing?
Zhao Xi used to hear him say "my brother, my brother, my brother", but it's a little bit unaccustomed to hear "he" stubbornly. After being stunned for a moment, I realized that the pieced together family had fallen apart, and that "my brother" was no longer justified.
Jiang Tian is no longer a brother, nor a boyfriend. He goes around and becomes a person who Shengwang doesn't know what to call him, and a so-and-so who can't be described in his mouth.
Zhao Xi said that he and Lin Beiting helped settle a part of the settlement, mainly because Jiang Tian himself was strong enough, and life would not be so difficult on the premise of scholarship. But just not so sad.
Sheng Wang asked him if he still had contact with Jiang Tian, and he said very little.
Because of this short answer, Sheng Wang made a ghostly trip back to Jiangsu, flipped out his old mobile phone and tossed it on WeChat. As soon as logged in, received a large number of unread messages.
They have stayed in the gap of time for too long, and they have no meaning to reply. Sheng Wang took a look at it and pulled it from beginning to end, but Jiang Tian's chat box was blank and there was nothing.
It was not until that moment that he realized that he uninstalled WeChat and discarded his mobile phone, and it was not pure anger.
He knows Jiang Tian's character and what it means to let go of the other party's decision-Jiang Tian left his school, old street, Changxiang, classmates, friends...all the worldly excitement to Shengwang, and walked with a cat. Gotta be clean.
And Sheng Wang just didn't want to accept this fact.
During that time, he would repeatedly poke into Jiang Tian's information interface.
The other party's nickname is still "Oh", the avatar is still "The Head", the album cover is the desk under the light and shadow, and the circle of friends stops on the song "Childhood", it seems that the fleeting years have come to an abrupt end, and there has been no update since then.
On the New Year's Day of the senior year, the day when he declined the confession of the schoolgirl, Sheng Wang sat on the playground stand until late at night, clutching his mobile phone. He wanted to talk to Jiang Tian, thinking like never before, but he didn't know what to say.
The way it ended was too hasty and embarrassing, and both sides were in a mess. So that the words that can be said when the mind is hot when they are young, but they can't be said when they are old.
In fact, it is useless to send it out. The things between them do not disappear for a day, and it just adds entanglements and troubles. The word "Loose Disconnection" sounds ambiguous, but it just runs in the opposite direction and has to be consumed. If it is consumed far enough and long enough, it can be broken peacefully.
He couldn't even say anything to greet each other. He couldn't imagine that one day, he and Jiang Tian would greet each other with "Are you busy?" "How are you?" , buried in the past.
On the day of his official graduation from the university, he was dragged by Chili Pepper and Gao Tianyang and had a part-time meal with a large group of people. It seems that every class in every school has a fixed procedure for calling ex-girlfriends and ex-girlfriends of various secret crushes. Just like April Fool's Day, the steps are set up early, and in case it's not satisfactory, just follow it down.
Sheng Wang initially thought they were a bunch of stupid birds, too naive. Later, the group of silly birds took turns toasting, and they sat on the sofa in the corner of the box for a long time.
Gao Tianyang was even more confused than him: "Did you give me your phone???"
He was dazed for a moment, and with an "oh" sounded, he took it out of his pocket, put it into the top of WeChat earnestly, and typed word by word: Are you still there?
Then withdraw.
Enter again: I graduated
Then withdraw.
Enter again: got two degrees, is it amazing?
...
He posted sentence by sentence, and then retracted sentence by sentence, as if he were revising an academic paper.
After Gao Tianyang finished drinking and fled to the corner, he saw that there was no green bar in the chat interface, only a long row of "You have withdrawn a message".
Then Sheng Wang said, "I just want to vomit", turned off the screen and rushed into the bathroom.
His withdrawal pile was long, but he didn't wait for a question mark. On the other hand, the news of others kept bouncing, and they came in groups to wish him a successful graduation. There are always some people like this who wish him a happy birthday, a happy holiday, and a safe New Year at various points in time. And he couldn't even match his name, so he could only say thank you formulaically, and so did you.
After that day, Sheng Wang never did such a thing again. He seemed to have packed everything up and threw himself into work vigorously. He went to a top consulting company with a high threshold. Most of the students admitted to their school that year were masters and doctorates, and he was a rare only seedling.
In the past, Auntie Sun often said that his ten fingers did not touch the spring water, and he did not know that he should put a little oil first when cooking rice, and he did not know the suffering. After graduating from college, he didn't miss a second, and couldn't wait to plunge into the suffering of the world. The company has a wide range of customers from all walks of life. His group focuses on foreign investment, but he is good-looking, can talk, and has strong ability. He has a good relationship with various groups and quickly built up his own network.
Sheng Mingyang always talked about "you are still young" before, until one day he encountered a threshold in business and needed to clear up the relationship. His previous business rarely involved that part, and he really couldn't find a suitable person for a while, and finally he went around and went around to his son.
On that day, Sheng Wang took advantage of the business trip to call him to have a meal, and he responded to the matchmaking. Sheng Mingyang suddenly realized that before he knew it, Sheng Wang was no longer the kid who was lying on the sofa drinking soda and playing games, and he would no longer turn his head and blushing because of his words.
Maybe it's suddenly feeling like I'm getting old, maybe it's drunk. Sheng Mingyang watched Sheng Wang poking his mobile phone in the middle of the banquet and seemed to be chatting on WeChat, and suddenly asked, "You and...you are in touch again?"
Sheng Wang paused for a moment, then continued typing, then closed the phone and said, "No."
He took a few bites and added: "He seems to have stopped using WeChat, don't worry."
At that moment, Sheng Mingyang seemed to want to say something, but in the end he just nodded. In his impression, his son was a bit spoiled, and he picked it up and picked it up. When he was angry, he blew up like an animal cub, and when he looked upright, he was actually soft.
It's different now.
He later found out that his son had wrapped himself with a layer of shell, hard with burrs, tightly stitched and a little prickly. The furry back of the head, Wang Zai, has disappeared in time, and I don't know where to look for it.
However, Sheng Wang made a mistake. Jiang Tian did not deliberately not reply to the message, but lost his mobile phone.
Jiang Ou and Ding old man were arranged by Zhao Xilin Beiting, and they paid a lot of money. He doesn't like to owe others, even if the relationship is good, but if he saves a little money, he will pay it back. So even if there is a scholarship, it is not well-off. His visa is limited and he can't do many odd jobs. In order to pay off as soon as possible, he reduced his expenses to a minimum, and the neighborhood he rented was not very safe.
He was stopped, stolen, and robbed. At first, he planned to endure it until he lost two mobile phones in a row and moved the place in a hurry. Every time he changed his phone, he always went to the cloud disk to pick up the old videos and photos that had been saved, and built a private album, which was carefully preserved, but he rarely clicked into it.
In early December of one year, he followed the professor to a scientific research meeting. On the way back, he stayed in Sweden for two days for the professor's personal reasons. The winters there are long and hard, and it starts to get dark at three o'clock in the afternoon.
Nearby shops were closed, and the only one with lights on was wine. The professor invited him to drink some hot blood together. He drank a few drinks and went to the corner, sitting in the armchair by the window, watching the sun sink early on the horizon, suddenly clicked into the album on his phone, pulled out a video from a long time ago, and pulled the progress bar back and forth. .
In the video, a boy in a school uniform walked a few steps under the street light, suddenly turned to look at him, and asked, "Can you take a picture?"
Jiang Tian bowed his eyes and rubbed his thumb on the progress bar constantly, dragging it back to the starting point every time he touched his head. Obviously very sober, but like a stubborn and clumsy drunk.
After chatting with his friend, the professor came over and glanced at his mobile phone with a novelty, but he didn't understand the specific content and asked with a smile, "What are you looking at?"
Jiang Tian turned off the phone screen and said, "It's nothing, my cat."
"Oh." The professor knew that he had a cat and had been raising it carefully for a long time. He nodded understandingly: "I've seen the photo, it's beautiful. What's it called? I can't always pronounce that name."
Jiang Tian turned his mobile phone with his fingers, and his eyes fell on a certain place in the void, seeming to be a little lost. He was silent for a few seconds before answering, "Wangzi."
Videos and photos are easy to find, but various accounts tied to mobile phone numbers are extremely troublesome, not to mention that some even recognize the device. Jiang Tian changed to a new WeChat, but he didn't add many people, most of them were international students, and most of the chat records were about schoolwork, with one exception.
It was added on impulse when he was sitting on the bus in the early morning one day. The contact person of the other party had probably exploded. He didn't even ask who he was, and fell asleep after a few random chats. But like a miser, he stared at those two indiscriminate jokes and looked the whole way.
This unknown WeChat seemed to put a layer of invisibility for him, and he used this shell to deceive himself. He will send a restrained blessing to the other party on holidays, and then at 0:00 on December 4th, he will say a happy birthday to the other party, and then exchange a simple and polite thank you.
He hurried forward in these simple replies, graduated early and applied for a PhD directly. It seemed that if he worked harder, the time could be shortened and it became less difficult.
However, every time he sprinted a few steps, he would always be pulled back a little by someone——
Jiang Ou has recovered very well in the past two years, sometimes it will give people an illusion, as if she just had a few days of weather under the stimulation of concentration, and the gas will disappear after that node.
For a time, she became gentle and elegant, and she always smiled when she talked to people, not in a hurry or in a hurry. So much that Jiang Tian thought everything was fine. Until one day, he tried to mention a grand hope, Jiang Ou seemed to be flipped on the switch, and instantly became restless. It was only then that he realized that the psychological problems were not so easy to solve, and could only rely on time and patience to slowly grind them.
During this period, the old man Ding went to the hospital several times and had an operation. Getting old is like standing on a tightrope, taking every step carefully, after passing this hurdle and the next hurdle, I am frightened.
So it doesn't matter how fast Jiang Tian runs, because the shadow moves too slowly.
It took him a long, long time for Shadow to barely catch up, and then he took a breath.
His mentor was a great man. At that time, there was a cooperation project on the medical application of nanomaterials that needed to be returned to China for a long time. When Jiang Tian saw the cooperative school, he sent an application. It was not until he got on the flight back home that he felt that he was a little dizzy this time.
The man he wanted to see had already graduated.
The end of the year is always the busiest time. Shengwang has been in continuous rotation for two and a half days, and held a video conference with customers at home and abroad. It was hard to catch the time after dawn, and was ready to make up for it for a day, so picked it up. got a call and said that a dinner was arranged for the evening,
He reached out from under the covers, grabbed his hair and sat up. Lack of sleep is easy to get angry, and I was full of anger. When I suddenly heard this incident, it was like a lawsuit: "Which client can choose time like this?"
"An expert in nanoscience, the original partner company had a little contact with us. Later, he moved to the medical field, and the contact was less. This time he brought a few doctors here to work on a project. You are very familiar with the partner school. I don't need to say it. It just so happens that our company and your school also have a cooperative development center, and the professor has some personal friends with Par. Anyway, after going back and forth, the dinner is settled. "
Sheng Wang didn't think it was a coincidence at all, only that he would be struck by lightning when disturbing people's clear dreams, so he went to places in high spirits at night and was not so energetic.
The big cow has a white face and a yellow stomach, and prefers Huaiyang cuisine. The company has given a box. Daniel said that he brought three doctors, and when Shengwang entered the door, he saw only two, and one seat was always vacant, and he didn't know whether it was a human or a ghost.
He stretched his nerves and greeted him for a moment, then sat down in the chair, and lazily replied a few waves of WeChat with his elbows. During the period, I suddenly heard the opposite professor and the two doctors mentioned the word "jiang", and raised their heads reflexively.
Sheng Wang stared at the opposite side for a few seconds, and didn't hear similar words and full names again, and felt that he was simply sick.
There are countless people with the same name and surname in the world, let alone just one surname. But he had to take a second look every time, as if the surname was so rare.
After an unknown time, the professor answered the phone and said with a smile that someone had arrived.
Sheng Wang put down the phone, rubbed his sleepy eyelids for a while, got up and said, "I'll pick it up." He just took a breath to ease his sleepiness.
When he opened the box door and went out, Jiang Tian happened to turn around from the corner.
For a moment they looked at each other, and then they stopped moving.
Sheng Wang was stunned for two seconds, his mind went blank.
There were people coming and going, talking constantly, but the two of them stood on a stiff and silent line, looking at each other in amazement, their eyebrows were still familiar, but they didn't dare to recognize them. Those fleeting years that used to be full of conflict, ambiguity and anxiety just rolled by slowly by the side. Hugging and kissing against the tip of the nose is like a past life. They stood where they were, but were hit beyond recognition.
Sheng Wang's fingers curled up and loosened, his throat was dry and tight. He said, "Brother."
……haven't seen you for a long time.